Glay Cuamag's blog: Dear Jzeck Rouy

Dear Jzeck Rouy,

I have been wanting to write this ✍️, to let you know how I feel about you these days. Maybe, the following words are coming from a pregnancy-hormone-operated mom 🤰, but I am relieved that I get to express all these thoughts now. 💬

Zeek, in six weeks or so, our home would no longer be just Papa Owen, Mama Glei and Zk. 👨‍👩‍👦 We’ll finally share this world with another human being as soon as we welcome your baby brother 👶 —who would become your future best friend 🤼 and the person who could effortlessly teach you how to be kind, fair, selfless, and to care, although most probably you'd learn all these in a hard way (through sibling wars 💢).

I could not be more excited to watch you grow and take up on this new role 🔓. But with this great feeling 😁 also comes with heavy emotions 😭. I have been slowly processing, capturing, and storing these memories with you 📼…I could not help but accept that our time alone together would soon come to an end. 🥺

I could still remember the first time that I met you 🚼…I was teary-eyed but full of wonder ✨, certainly overwhelmed with so much joy 🥰—staring back at those beautiful eyes, experiencing an entirely different kind of love-at-first-sight moment 💘. Know that I greeted you instantly with “Happy Birthday” 🎈, I could recall your Papa Owen who was immediately allowed to enter the delivery room moments later, he mouthed his first “I love you” to you 😍. You coming to our lives has certainly given us a different sense of purpose 🧩, a new meaning for existing in this world 🌱, has ultimately inspired us to become better people and parents worthy of your presence 👩‍❤️‍👨.

Fast-forward to this day, you are now four years old 👦. Yes, we have been telling you a lot lately about how time easily goes by ⏩, how fast you have grown these past weeks —looking all so Kuya already ⏫. Part of me wants to spend a little longer with my baby Zkboi ⏯️, for you to experience the solo-child attention a little bit more ⏱️.

But most of me also wants to see the next-phase Zk 👨…I have imagined you transitioning to a responsible, conscious, and even-more-loving person 🙆‍♂️. I could picture you sharing your random I love you’s 🗣️, sweet kisses 💋, warmest hugs 🤗, or demonstrating how you could be extremely garaon to your little brother 😏. But we likewise anticipate that the changes you are about to go through could be at times, hard for you to deal with 🤯…know that we’ll be there to help you understand those feelings 😳, to make the most out of the new experience 🤓, to let you adapt, develop naturally, and move through such phase at your pace. 📈

The past four years have been the best time of our lives 💕, Boi (including the “I-rule-the-world” moments 😤 where we’re surely tested as parents 😵). We’ve been blessed with a time when we could be just randomly or consistently in awe by your existence 😲. And we look forward to expanding this beautiful consciousness with another soul 🔜👨‍👩‍👦‍👦.

While I can’t wait to see what our future would be like in over a month from now 🤔, I want these last few weeks alone with you to slow down—soaking in every Zkboi minute ⏲️ before your little brother arrives 👣. To my firstborn, my smart, kiat Buluntuy, clingy (hope you wouldn't change 👩‍👦) and lovable soon-to-be-Kuya Zk, you will always be the one who made me a mom 🤱, the person who taught me how to be selfless, to show unparalleled patience, to love unconditionally, and to live with so much hope—knowing that one day, we’d see you grow into a much more beautiful human being 🙋‍♂️.

As I dwell on these remaining days with you as our only child ⏰, I would also make sure that you’d share the same excitement to meet your little bro 🍼. While he would never have us all to himself like what you had ☝️, I know he will receive an entirely different and special attention from you 👬. He will have this overflowing love 💞, not just from Papa and Mama, but from his Kuya as well ❣️. He will be the luckiest little bro to have you and us 💖.

Thank you, for being just you, my Zkboi, I love you with all my mind and heart. 💚❤️

Mama Glay